Man this blogging thing is harder than I thought. I always have these conversations in my head. At that moment, it would be great to have a computer in front of me. However these conversations are usually in the bath tub (which I just got out of to blog right now), driving in the car, working, etc. Not real convenient time to blog. At the end of the night would be that best time, but dang I usually can not put two sentences together. But you do what you can do.
Lately it just seems like all the fun out of life is missing. Luckily with emotions they pass and I know I will be on to something else more joyful. It just seems everyone around me is just so overstressed with their lives and I feel the same. Really questioning the grind of motherhood (oh gasp absolutely forbidden) and realizing this is why I kept putting it off. lol Luckily I have a great support system and I am going to take off for a few days to decompress and just think about myself up in Austin. I have not completely weaned Ava so this will be interesting. I want to miss being a mother and not see it as such a chore. I am not sure my getaway will do that, but I am ready to try anything. I just do not seem to bounce back from stressful stuff like I once did. I am also taking supplements again for my adrenalines and muscle pains. I hope it will help me to sleep. I am looking forward to my little trip. I remember when I was single and could not wait to be with someone and maybe start a family someday. Its funny how you do not appreciate where you are at and always want something else. Case in point right now! lol
Today I am home with cold I got from Craig and Ava has shown some signs, but bounces back well. I watched two documentaries "Every Little Step" which was about auditions for the revival of A Chorus Line in 2006. I love musicals. I learned some new facts about the revival and the original production. I have never seen the musical only the movie which I hear was just terrible compared to the musical production. I do love a lot of the musical numbers though.
The other documentary was No Impact Man. A lot of my friends would probably see this and think that is totally Amy (but that person would be the husband). The wife had to be reluctantly dragged to do this, but in the end glad she did. It is basically trying to have no impact on your environment: no electricity, no transportation, all food local, no meat (because I guess it was hard to get it locally and they do take a lot of energy to produce), and what got a lot of publicity was no toilet paper. The family reminded me so much of my family expect I was more like the husband (which I mentioned above, butm not sure I could of gone to the extremes he did, but I could surprise myself), Craig would be more like the wife (although she was a lot more willing to go with things than I think Craig would) . In the documentary their daughter looked so much like Ava and was around the same age it was spooky. I highly recommend it.
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