R&R

Lately I have been venting about motherhood a lot. And after my little getaway I realized I was just totally utterly exhausted. Before children I could use my home as a refuge to get away from the world and your responsibites. For better or worse when you have children you can't. It can all be very entertaining and fun then with a blink of an eye pissed about all the stuff that you now have to do.

When you become a mom because important more than ever to have time to do NOTHING. I now understand why people go on cruises and do EXACTLY that nothing. If cruises had better food I would focus there. However I have realized resort spas are the way to go for me. And honestly not any kind of resort spa. I actually want to feel relaxed and rejuivanted. I have no interest to put cavier creme on me or high priced muds that I could easily go into my own backyard for. lol I need something meditative in natural world. WE ALL NEED THIS. We are absolutely too productive in this country.

With the economic crisis in Greece that has put a strain on the rest of the EU. American journalists asked the leaders, "So going to have to give up some of that crazy 6-8 week vacations. Right???" It was not even on the table for them. If anything they countered and said. "It would be foolish to even consider something like that it helped their workforce to be more content and productive. Why would we mess with that?"

EXACTLY! I feel like a fish out of water when it comes to the American culture and this idea. I honestly think this is at the bottom of our healhcare crisis. Before for religious reasons we had a day of rest on Sunday. You need that to recharge. It is now a virtue to continually work hard all the time. Work culture, our home life, our children's life to have them play every sport on creation and come home with a ton of homework.

For me that has got to stop. So my answer is going to a tranquil and serene spa where I can face myself and be at peace. But this is the kicker FACE YOURSELF its not always going to be peaceful. When we are so busy we tend to neglect our emotional and spirtual lives. And a lot of us like this because once you face yourself and be honest some of the truths are not pleasant. But getting to the other side is soooo grand. Because it never go away it just keeps adding up and I personally believe if you keep ignoring it your physical body just gives up finally and says enough is enough. You become sick and die. Sorry to be blunt, but I firmly believe this.

I empower everyone to take at least one vacation a year where you do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING and have someone take care of you. Because I am now a mother I have special interest especially for the mothers. Caregivers are the unsung heros of this world and we need to take care of them better and give back to them.

Drill Baby Drill....or NOT

I just dropped Ava at Grandmama's, driving in my car listening to Pacifica radio. They have a community call-in segment around 9 am. A woman caller can on the line just fuming about the Obama's administration for the handling of the BP oil spill crisis. She just got me all riled by not in agreement with her.

What this president has had to endure in just the last two years astounds me. As a public we are never pleased, we are ugly and harsh. We do not take responsibility for our own actions. If we did, BP would not have the power they do. We would not be beholden to our cars. I think this administration is doing the best that they can in a very difficult situation. The culture of the oil industry did not start with him. Anyone around her can tell you how awful BP's safety record is. I am amazed not more stuff has happened.

It is absolutely sad that were such a terribly reactive culture instead of preventative. We do not tend to do anything unless it is a crisis. It's while the levies broke and why our healthcare is a mess. Then the greed and BP is the worst of them. It was the bottom line they were thinking of when the rig went up in the middle of the gulf. If nothing had happened then we as a culture would be fine with business as usual. I am not even sure how to even boycott BP. I know their oil is used in a lot of areas that we do not realize.

What I would love to see is a channeling of our anger into action for real reform of the oil industry and alternative fuel sources. It is sad it takes disaster for us to even think this way. And I am not even sure it will move that way instead I think we could vote out a good president and allow republicans in charge. YAhhoooo our saviors.

Blah Blah Day

Man this blogging thing is harder than I thought. I always have these conversations in my head. At that moment, it would be great to have a computer in front of me. However these conversations are usually in the bath tub (which I just got out of to blog right now), driving in the car, working, etc. Not real convenient time to blog. At the end of the night would be that best time, but dang I usually can not put two sentences together. But you do what you can do.

Lately it just seems like all the fun out of life is missing. Luckily with emotions they pass and I know I will be on to something else more joyful. It just seems everyone around me is just so overstressed with their lives and I feel the same. Really questioning the grind of motherhood (oh gasp absolutely forbidden) and realizing this is why I kept putting it off. lol Luckily I have a great support system and I am going to take off for a few days to decompress and just think about myself up in Austin. I have not completely weaned Ava so this will be interesting. I want to miss being a mother and not see it as such a chore. I am not sure my getaway will do that, but I am ready to try anything. I just do not seem to bounce back from stressful stuff like I once did. I am also taking supplements again for my adrenalines and muscle pains. I hope it will help me to sleep. I am looking forward to my little trip. I remember when I was single and could not wait to be with someone and maybe start a family someday. Its funny how you do not appreciate where you are at and always want something else. Case in point right now! lol

Today I am home with cold I got from Craig and Ava has shown some signs, but bounces back well. I watched two documentaries "Every Little Step" which was about auditions for the revival of A Chorus Line in 2006. I love musicals. I learned some new facts about the revival and the original production. I have never seen the musical only the movie which I hear was just terrible compared to the musical production. I do love a lot of the musical numbers though.

The other documentary was No Impact Man. A lot of my friends would probably see this and think that is totally Amy (but that person would be the husband). The wife had to be reluctantly dragged to do this, but in the end glad she did. It is basically trying to have no impact on your environment: no electricity, no transportation, all food local, no meat (because I guess it was hard to get it locally and they do take a lot of energy to produce), and what got a lot of publicity was no toilet paper. The family reminded me so much of my family expect I was more like the husband (which I mentioned above, butm not sure I could of gone to the extremes he did, but I could surprise myself), Craig would be more like the wife (although she was a lot more willing to go with things than I think Craig would) . In the documentary their daughter looked so much like Ava and was around the same age it was spooky. I highly recommend it.